oh wait... its saturday
Saturday used to be fun and cheerful.
Not anymore, I am all worn out saturday seems to be a nightmare over and over again. I am not complaining that much. I love the youths they are awesome yet sometimes it is a burden to be in that ministry looking at raging teenagers who would love everything with ‘rebel’ label on it
Yet my heart and passion is for youth ministry. Sure they may break hearts most of the time and my shield gets weaker every momment. But I am still happy to see them every week.
Then comes direction in church. I don’t know what direction or vision and mission they are aiming for but we’re far from it. I don’t know why we are going in circles. Why the messages have been the same every week. Why we must love mother in laws every week. Why children and parents every week. WHY WHY WHY? yes it is all kingdom living. There are more to kingdom living like compassion. Care for the beggars bring them up to church when you see them… see? Compassion. Oh no we also must have compassion for our mother in laws. SERIOUSLY? I HAVE ENOUGH OF MOTHER IN LAW SERMONS!
Last couple of week I saw a couple of my girls scribbling on their ‘paper msn’ I wanted to stop them but I did not because in a sense I don’t blame them for not listening. Part of me wasn’t paying attention either. I didn’t know that is possible to shut my ears like that. I was thinking more on what time is it or afternoon freedom!
Last week I make sure the girls listens to the sermon. I sat where I was a threat to them. I kept them under eye contact yet I am sure most of the sermon did not even come close to their ears. Dodging it like Matrix bullet.
Over to my left is a wife who busy jotting down the notes and her husband with his head down eyes closed… A walk to the back shows a whole different senario… People are happier joyful and of course not that much of paying attention to the sermon. This happens every weekend and the sermon just goes longer and longer and longer.
I don’t know what is going on. I wish I had the answer but no. I can’t take this any longer. I break down now. Yes you are sure I already have.
