By nature, I am a sacrificial person. I don’t mind giving my… time, energy, money almost anything for free and for a cause. But I cannot stand people taking it for granted.
The 1st time I could recall was in sydney where it was the last night of our trip. Our host has decided to take us out to the city which was like already 11pm. The problem was there’s not enough space… So I kindly withdraw myself and let my friends go. I went to bed instead. Finally when I decided to lay down my head. One of my friends walked into the bedroom. -.- I asked what happened? he say there’s no where in the city I can buy souvenir this late so I want to sleep instead. Seriously?
And now again the same thing happened. I was suppose to be in the conference yet instead I am writing this. I scarifies my leave for my friend who suppose to be in the same office and church so she could go. But I just been told that she CMI because she overslept. Seriously?
07:45
Somehow December is all wrong. The structure of the dates are wrong. Christmas on Friday means a lot of dates are pushed back.
There’s tons to run. Christmas play being the top of the list, Party, APYAC, 2 weddings after Christmas. wow. Seriously?
The play is looking good. I think it’ll turn out to be something awesome. The college people have put in effort like never before to turn things into sort of a mini masterpiece. I love it. The youths have all come together pretty well. At least they are beginning to gel together comparing to during camp they were all still pretty shy around each other.
Things are looking good.
Work is tiring as well. Well, not really. It is just certain project. Mainly our AA client wants 2 website which sells the same thing but want different thing. I have no clue. I hope to get it done by tuesday. I can’t take it anymore oh they want it live this month 0_0
09:57
I think I have a bad habit. I tend to forget people whenever they are out of sight. Be it overseas or local (hey local friends count too) Sometimes they stay near to me but yet without contact we forgot that we actually live few foot away.
Yet some, as weirdly as they were, still close to me no matter what happened. Yet for most of my overseas friend, sorry for neglecting you I know busyness is not a good excuse but truly I need to see you to remember you. HAHA cheh…
Just kidding. So what about you? do you forget people when you don’t see them?
01:01
Ah how ironic is life.
On monday class, Pastor Lisa was saying. “In you ministry you got to train up leaders faster because many of them only has a span of 2 years to be leaders before they go overseas.”
On that very night, I heard of the news that there was an offer to one of my leader might have a chance to study in France.
On the very next day, she was really offerd with that chance to study in France and that her flight is actually going to be the beginning of June.
Yep. Ironic.
10:04
“ Tomorrow is the most important thing in life. Comes into us at midnight very clean. It’s perfect when it arrives and it puts itself in our hands. It hopes we’ve learned something from yesterday.
John Wayne
14:10
Saturday used to be fun and cheerful.
Not anymore, I am all worn out saturday seems to be a nightmare over and over again. I am not complaining that much. I love the youths they are awesome yet sometimes it is a burden to be in that ministry looking at raging teenagers who would love everything with ‘rebel’ label on it
Yet my heart and passion is for youth ministry. Sure they may break hearts most of the time and my shield gets weaker every momment. But I am still happy to see them every week.
Then comes direction in church. I don’t know what direction or vision and mission they are aiming for but we’re far from it. I don’t know why we are going in circles. Why the messages have been the same every week. Why we must love mother in laws every week. Why children and parents every week. WHY WHY WHY? yes it is all kingdom living. There are more to kingdom living like compassion. Care for the beggars bring them up to church when you see them… see? Compassion. Oh no we also must have compassion for our mother in laws. SERIOUSLY? I HAVE ENOUGH OF MOTHER IN LAW SERMONS!
Last couple of week I saw a couple of my girls scribbling on their ‘paper msn’ I wanted to stop them but I did not because in a sense I don’t blame them for not listening. Part of me wasn’t paying attention either. I didn’t know that is possible to shut my ears like that. I was thinking more on what time is it or afternoon freedom!
Last week I make sure the girls listens to the sermon. I sat where I was a threat to them. I kept them under eye contact yet I am sure most of the sermon did not even come close to their ears. Dodging it like Matrix bullet.
Over to my left is a wife who busy jotting down the notes and her husband with his head down eyes closed… A walk to the back shows a whole different senario… People are happier joyful and of course not that much of paying attention to the sermon. This happens every weekend and the sermon just goes longer and longer and longer.
I don’t know what is going on. I wish I had the answer but no. I can’t take this any longer. I break down now. Yes you are sure I already have.
11:30
